And I've come to the realization, that's ok. It seems simple but in a period where I feel like I'm in a self proclaimed funk, it's necessary to remind myself of just that.
The past year and a half I experienced a tremendous amount of growth in myself. I figured out the type of person I wanted to be. I daily felt inspired with different thoughts or ideas. I challenged myself but also trusted myself. I questioned some things and accepted others. And during this time I felt empowered, strong, ready to conquer the world or at least my world.
So here I am feeling like I'm at a plateau. Feeling like every setback is much bigger than it is. Feeling exhausted and feeling meh. Whatever emotion that is. Like I said, that's ok. Just like our bodies take a break from growing, I can take a break from growing emotionally. Sometimes it's necessary. It's ok if I don't feel like taking on the world today or if I'm uninspired. For now. I have no doubt that my inspiration will return and I will soon feel like changing the world again.
But for now, people have unknowingly helped me find peace but speaking truth in my life. Whether it is my mom who is amazing about speaking truth in a kind, loving, but practical way, my bible study unknowingly sending out the perfect scripture in an email, or catching up with friends who can empathize while encourage, all of these speak truth in my life in their own unique and special way.
So here's to being content. A constant struggle but worth the fight.
"Life is more than clothes and cars and a new flavor of toothpaste. It is community and creation and beauty and humanity...There is a serenity in life, after all, and once a withdrawal is felt at having left the lies behind, a soul begins to feel at home in its own skin."
-Donald Miller Through Painted Deserts
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